Everyone keeps telling us how great we are doing...we did meet our monthly goals and I am proud of that. However, no on else talking about the little things that happen everyday. Maybe it's just me but this is hard!!! I am having a really hard time getting this budget thing down I am feeling overwhelmed and right now really want to lay it down and forget about it. It seems like it would be so much easier... but I know in the long run, it will be better for my family if we can just push on through it. I know that we are not the only ones having a hard time and a lot of people can relate. All of my friends in the competition are doing so good and that is what they are talking about in their blogs... I wanna hear what is difficult and how they are getting past that. That is what this is about.
I am "financially depressed". I am SO concerned about how much money I spend, I don't want to spend any of it. This week, I have not put any money into my envelopes. My house is bone dry- I have not done any grocery shopping in a week (remember, I shop a week at a time). I am out of toilet paper, paper towels, baggies, milk, bread... almost everything.
But I can't get myself to go to the damn store. I keep thinking... we don't need that. I have some essential meat and potatoes, and that is what we have been eating. I feel like I need to use coupons to save money but it is incredibly stressful to figure out which store has the cheapest stuff. "Is the coupon really saving money because the generic is cheaper?" "What coupons do I have that fit this sales paper?" I don't have the time to do coupons. My house is a mess, I feel like I can't keep up with anything. And on top of that, I have to get another damn job so we can cover our bills and save...
Overall, I feel like a failure. I haven't balanced anything, much less a budget!!! My ultimate goal is to develop the tools that it takes to dig myself out of this hole. It will be hard and I know that it will be worth it I just have to remind myself of that when I am so stressed that I want to hide under a desk...
I know that I am not the only one... please give me any advice that you think will help me in any way. The winning lottery numbers would be best though!!!
Thanks for listening.
- Leanne